Where Have You Been, Priscilla?
So, today I’m letting you ladies know where I’ve been…
But first, let me start by sharing that a large part of who I’ve been can be described by how I respond to life’s circumstances. I am and have always been sensitive. This sensitivity became even more obvious to me when I discovered the imbalance of the chemicals in my brain.
I live with bipolar disorder. This is nothing new to me, to be honest. My bipolar journey spans back to age 21. So it’s been a minute.
For the past several months I’ve been on a mental and emotional roller coaster. I’ve been on and off of my platforms more since August 2021. The loss of my pet last August led me deep into an ocean of sensitive emotions. My feelings of despair caught up with my chemical imbalance and life got pretty rocky.
All this to say, I learned something pretty eye-opening recently, which has led me back here.
It’s this…I can no longer allow feelings of oppression to catapult me into despair and pessimism.
From experience, I know that my tendency to be pessimistic about life leaves me in daily depression and a cycle of bipolar highs and lows.
I’ll have a journey with bipolar for the rest of my life. But, now I know something pretty amazing…
I still have some control over this thing!
Feelings are ok, but allowing them to control my everyday outlook on life is not. I may feel awful about something, but that doesn’t mean everything is awful.
So, it’s been a couple of weeks of work so far, but I’m working on not judging my life based on my sensitive feelings. I’m facing my feelings but choosing to still stand in faith with a perspective that I can still see life as a blessing. A blessing that I want to be a part of daily.
Also, I have to give credit where it is due. The Holy Spirit, @morgantracyj – my ministry mentor, and therapy all helped me come to this realization.
Since childhood, oppression has worked its hardest to attach itself to me, but no more will I be a slave to it.
Pray for my strength, my sisters-in-Christ!
Finally, I have to tell you that ministry has become a part of my daily life, and I’m committed to sharing my love for God, the power of prayer, and who He is in His word with all of you.
So if you see me fall off and it is on your heart, reach out and check on me. I’m praying I can do the same thing for you through my ministry.
If you got this far, thank you for reading!
Much love to you and many blessings,
Priscilla
This was so powerful thank you for sharing your journey with your mental health but also Gods strength with us!
Ahh you’re welcome! I plan to share even more about my mental health journey. I would be no where with out God. I thank Him for continuing to heal my mind and my heart. Thanks for reading sis!
Love this. Thank you for your transparency.
Thank you sis! I’m glad you value the transparency. It’s my goal to be more and more open with you all. God Bless!
Priscilla, it was a pleasure to meet you on the CLARITY & CONFIDENCE gathering on last night. Thank you for being transparent. You are going to do great things in your ministry. You are a blessed woman.
Palmala, it was great to meet you as well. It’s always nice to connect with other women doing the work God has called them to do. Thank you for the love!
Thank you for being transparent and sharing this side of your life with us! ❤️ Its inspiring to know you continue to push through when some people may have already given up if they were in your situation. A testament to your strength, faith, and obedience!
God is awesome and He is my strength! It’s my pleasure to get real with you ladies. I know the message will reach who it’s intended for and be a blessing from God to them. Sharing God’s goodness empowers others and I see you doing that in your ministry too.
Wow! This message is right on time! Thank you so much for sharing ❤️ I can TOTALLY relate to what you’ve experienced. It feels sooo good to know I’m not alone. As always my prayers are with you 🙏🏾
Erica! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me. It’s very eye opening seeing how many women can relate to me. Thank for the prayers. You will be in mine too. I praise God we are never alone.